psyche.lovely

i'm so happy.

last.fm

votreame:

I don’t like it. It makes music a numbers game. Comparing your listens to someone else. Plagiarizing someones name (okay I did that on my own). And it’s no fun. It is going to psych where when something is extrinsic, it becomes less meaningful. And there’s no soul in that. So, last.fm, I think I may be leaving you. This is possibly a goodbye. Our time together was short, but fun. A bientot !

i disagree completely.  i think you’re missing what the two most beneficial aspects of last.fm are: finding new music and finding people who have similar taste (which is rare in real life if you like good music). it’s not a competition of plays, it’s not a numbers game, and it is fun. it’s a tool for you more than anything, and it’s also a way to quickly give someone an idea of the kind of music you like. i understand why it may bother you, reducing an experience like music to the form of numbers and charts. i do criticize facebook for trying to represent one’s social life in a tangible form even though the quality of one’s social life lies in real moments and experiences and not silly comments and friend counts. But you just have to let that go and use these sites as practical tools.  last.fm isn’t going to debase your love for music.

the next ten years.

i’m excited for them. i’m excited for my 20’s. if i’m ambitious enough, they’ll be epic. if not, i might end up with a crap boring job and a crap boring life. that’s the trouble with wanting to be an artist, or being an artist only in your bedroom.. you have that itch inside to create and share cause you just know it’s all inside you, but you might get caught up in all the crap and stop creating and doubt yourself and quit when everyone tells you to quit dreaming and give up. and then the fact that you never lived up to your potential will always be in the back of your mind. i don’t really see that happening to me though. i’ve known what i wanted to do since i was 13. and back then i was scared of everything, i was invisible, and i was depressed. now though, i’m an impulsive hedonist who gives much less of a fuck and takes that whole “life’s short” thing very seriously. so i think i can actually do it now. i want to write books and albums. they’re way ambitious on their own. and i wanna do both. and i’m going to.

is this... it?

i kind of feel expired.. like i’ll never be able to love.
like that belief’s just slippin away.
or i’m just bored of waiting and trying.
it used to be a big dream.
but, relationships are just so codependent..
the petty fights, the jealousies.
and they fade.
useless.
what i have now are goals.
something to work toward, but on my own time and my own terms.
fuck deadlines. especially those made by others for you.
all i want is an art life.
and maybe art is just as meaningless as anything else.
but it’s fun.
and it just. feels. so.
it just feels so much more real than the real world.

overflowing with ideas before i fall asleep,

too lazy to do anything with them during the day.

Drop your guard, you don’t have to be smart all of the time
I got a mind full of blanks I need to go somewhere new fast
And don’t be shy, oh no, at least deliberately
No one really cares or wonders why anymore
Oh I got music, coming outta my hands and feet and kisses
That is how it once was done
All the dreamers on the run

-julian casablancas

his debut solo album is getting some crap reviews.. whatever. i think it’s great and sounds really different. i mean, let’s be serious, i’d probably like any music with his voice involved, but he seems to have accomplished his goal here. in an interview, he said he was trying to combine the catchiness of modern music with the intensity of classical, or something along those lines, and that is evident on the album. it’s quite a cool combination, too. so what if it’s not the strokes? of course it’s not the strokes. and one criticism is that it’s full of contradictions.. come on, it’s called phrazes for the young. i love contradiction, being young, and jules.